Halloween!

Sooo, I suck at Halloween. I've never been good at coming up with costume ideas. I always just scramble something together last minute, if I even remember at all. And so for this particular Halloween dance at school, My friend, Yiselle, and I went as nerds. Superhero nerds. Okay, well, we just wore superhero shirts and suspenders and some glasses. It's all we had at the time! But, we did look cute. Just sayin'.

We always somehow go as the same thing to whatever kind of dance or school event where you dress up, and we are dressed almost exactly the same. Thank goodness, we're best friends.

Overall? It was a good dance. Definitely had it's highlights... like interpretive dancing with Brigham! Fun kid. Oh and here's my favorite costume at the dance. My absolute favorites. Too bad I can't ever be this clever when it comes to Halloween.

Oh, yeah. Do the creep.

peace

Perfect Starry Night

So for whatever reason last night (while my school was under a bomb threat) I decided to write a poem. Why? No idea. I don't write poetry. Or anything really at all. But I did! And it's on here. So enjoy...

We went up to the hilltop, to see the skies

I looked to you, stars caught in your eyes

We saw no moon but all stars on that night

and for the first time in a while I felt alright.

Right here, right now is what I needed.

Right here, right now, I'm not defeated.

Hold me tight now because it's completed 
like a perfect starry night...
(...like a perfect starry night...)


You wrapped me up like a blanket in your arms
I felt warm, and safe against all harm
But a cool, crisp breeze still hits my face
We feel so small in this giant place.


You looked to me, my toes begin to curl
You hold my hand like we could conquer the world
Count shooting stars, we close our eyes
and shared a dream and woke to orange skies.

Right here, right now, you're next to me

Right here, right now is how I'll be

Hold me tight now because you see me
like a perfect starry night...
(...like a perfect starry night...)


peace

Musketeers. Massacres. And Waffles.

Today consisted of old-time-rich-people dancing, smoothies, Roanoke, Beyoncé, Chris Brown, the new Three Musketeers movie, 3D glasses, Ihop being closed, looking for a gas station, seeing a deer get massacred by a car, Waffle House, getting pulled over, really nice cops, and coming home while hoping there's no psycho waiting for someone to let him in my house.

Yep, today was fun :)

peace

Homecoming Dance

I had such a fun night last night! I probably had one of the best dates I've had in a while! I went to the dance with a friend of mine, and before the dance we decided to make omelets! They were so good!

Then we got ready for the dance and pretty danced the whole time! It was an amazing night. I danced like crazy, danced with my friend and just had fun.

For the first time in a while, I've actually been myself and happy. Like really happy. I haven't figured out everything yet but I found myself again. It's funny how Heavenly Father answers prayers, I've been looking for an answer and he gave me something else that ended up be exactly what I needed.

Serendipity. It's a wonderful thing.

peace

My Mama always said you've got to put the past behind you before you can move on. - the movie Forrest Gump

So I'm finally ready to start moving on. Things have gotten too complicated and things don't feel the same. I'm not ready for a new relationship or anything, but I NEED to move on. I've lost a sense of myself. I need to know who I am again. I don't think I did this but it feels like I spent the past month and a half being someone I'm not. I mean, I'm always myself but not really.. I don't know. Friends? No? I guess is not the time. It's never the right time.

But I have a date for Homecoming! It's my first step to moving on! I'm excited :)

peace

Are things even close to being over?

Welp, after a wonderful weekend of Conference, the day after, I find a reason to feel crappy again.

..efff

Things aren't right yet. At least... I think so...

Welp, looks like I got more soul searching to do.

crap.

peace

It's better to look up!

This weekend we had General Conference, and it was AMAZING!

Exactly what I needed. After everything that has happened to me this summer and the stuff I'm going through now, it came right at the right time. I've definitely learned a lot from it. Given me a new view on things in my life. Let's just say it was a spiritual feast!

Here are some brief things that were said that stuck out to me the most:

• DESIRE
• We are the reason he made the universe. We are everything to God.
• Our existence here is a small moment in space and time.
• We matter to him.
• Be as quick to kneel as we are to text
• It's better to look up.
• Look up. Step up. Cheer up. God wants us to be happy.
• Be a guardian of Virtue
• Be loyal to the royal in you
• "I belong to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints."
• Best compliment in this life: A Covenant Keeper
• Reach out. Serve. Assist.
• Be grateful for all the tender mercies that come into our lives.

What I have taken out of this General Conference is that I need to just put the Lord first and live the Gospel and trust the Lord that things will work out for the better. Heavenly Father loves me, and he wants to give me blessings. He wants me to be happy. He'll only tell me what to do if I make a decision. And I think I have. I look back at my life and I've come so far from 3 years ago. And when times are down it is better to look up.

peace