Nomad.

Everyone is on their way home for the holidays and I have to say...

I'm jealous.

Even though my parents live in Hawaii and according to my drivers license I'm from Hawaii. It's not really my home. I love it there, don't get me wrong, but I've never had a moment or even a real amount of time there to set my roots and really accept it as my home.

I've been going to Southern Virginia for 3 and half years now but this is a temporary. I have to graduate, and move on with my life. I always knew I had to leave one day, and so I've never felt the need to say "I'm home" while I've been here.

Iowa is where I've lived the longest... But the day I moved away I was so happy to get rid of it and leave. That's not how you should treat a home... I don't like to linger in the past. I move on from somewhere and disclaim my bad memories as fast as I can...

I don't have a "home". I'm a nomad. Just traveling along the road of life. Just traveling aimlessly... I don't have a place that either accepts me or I accept it. I've either ran away from it or don't want it or I don't feel like I belong there...

But then I remember where my real home is...

Home is back with my Heavenly Father. All these places that I have lived in or currently live in, have helped define my journey in this lifetime. Home is not where you belong. Home is not where you have the most memories. Home is not a location. Home is literally where your heart is. Where you are the most comfortable at that time... and where the Lord is, is where you belong.

Funny how simple things can be when you trust the Lord..

peace
 

Thank you, Mr. Marley.

Thank you, Mr. Marley.

peace

Superman

Oh, hey everyone. This is Daniel.

He's my forever :)

peace

Lucky.

Even when life gets crazy and hectic and I am stressed out of my mind, I am always reminded how lucky I am. I'm glad they are always there for me. A solid foundation for me fall on and will never leave me.

Yay :)

Waiting.

Random Thought Before Going to Bed:

You know how people wait for the right opportune moment to do whatever it is they need or want to do? Ya know, when they are "waiting for the right time"? Well I think that's silly. The right time will be the right time no matter what because you are choosing it to be. The right opportune moment isn't something you wait for, it's the moment you get ten seconds of insane courage to DO it. Nothing happens from waiting. Things happen from taking action. SO I say we all stop, waiting for moments to happen, and we start making moments happen. Then you won't have people telling you missed your chance, or your too late. Life is what you make it, right? So make it a life where things happen. If you nothing ever happens to you, why do you spend all your time looking back?

Anyway... that was that!

Music. Feelings to sound.

So I'm sure you all remember my Perfect Starry Night poem. And if not, click here if you would like to read it. :)
Well anyway, I finally put music to it! Sounds pretty good, I guess! Chris Hughes helped me out with it. It's kinda funny how it happened. You see, we were co-counselors EFY Buena Vista week 3 (PS. More blogs about my EFY experiences coming soon!) and we kinda had some tough kids. So to 'vent' and take a break away from them, we would run up to the dance studio and jam out. (We also worked on our own version of Come Thou Fount and sang it to our kids.) Chris started showing me different chord progressions he had been working on and started just playing. Then I remembered I had poems that could easily be put to music and then one thing just clicked after another. Then Tyler and his violin joined us and it was awesome!

So Chris and I finally recorded it (without Tyler sadly) and when there is a link I'll post it!

But tonight Chris and I wrote an original song! Just made it up out of the top of my head! Chris is awesome at the guitar and is good at helping me come up with a melody!

The song is called Stronger and Better.

And here are the lyrics:

I saw you with that smile
I never saw this comin'
You took me by surprise and
all I want is your lovin'
Have me thinking 'bout you
Every second. Every day
there's something you do
that keeps me..

Love everything about you, baby!
We'll be together now. Forever, maybe?
Let's take on the world together.
Leave our mark, we'll make it stronger and better...

Feelings that you give me
Holding my hand
My stomach does a backflip
Every time you kiss me
I see possibilities
in your eyes we'll be
showing the world what we're made of
give them a sight

Love everything about you, baby!
We'll be together now. Forever, maybe?
Let's take on the world together.
Leave our mark, we'll make it stronger and better...


:) it's cheesy, and I like it.

peace

Stop. Look. Think. Thank. & Smile.

I know no one really blogs anymore (or reads my blog) but I'm glad I have this for my random inspired thoughts, and rants that seem to show up at about three in the morning.

So for the past three weeks I have been watching Gilmore Girls like a truly devoted fan with insomnia (oh wait..) and after watching five episodes in a row, I tried to go to sleep. I wasn't feeling tired, so I started thinking about life. I believe that about 10 times a year every single person in this world lies awake at night thinking:
"Am I on the right path?" "Will I be ever good enough?" "Why does every one at SVU get marreid?" "My best friend is getting married and I'm doing what with my life?"

Then I remembered I have this book that my wonderful parents got me. The book is called Dance While You Can. It's not an LDS book, though it makes a valid point that we need to live life to fullest. The first page is this sad poem:

First I was dying to get out of high school and start college.

And then I was dying to finish college and start working.

And then I was dying to marry and have children.

And then I was dying for my children 

to grow old enough 

so I could get back to my career.

And then I was dying to retire.

And now I am dying...

    and suddenly realize that I forgot to live.

-Author Unknown

And thanks to Mr. Unknown, I realized that I am beginning to do the same thing. I sit up thinking what am I going to do with my future. I sit and see my friends get married left and right, I see people graduating college and all I think to myself is "Gee, I can't wait for that to happen to me." I had forgotten to love and enjoy where I am now. Yes, I may possibly be nowhere near getting married and I may have only a year left of school (depending if I ever write this dang AWP for Cluff.) I am just sitting here at school, dying to get to the next step of my life already. You know how when you put something in the microwave, even if it's just 30 seconds to 1 minute. Standing there looking at it feels like for-ev-er. Only when you decide to go check your laundry while your hot pocket is cooking, the thing you want most comes as fast as you want it when you stare at it.

 There is a beauty and clarity that comes from simplicity that we sometimes do not appreciate in our thirst for intricate solutions. 

Said by Uctdorf. Oct 2010.

Yes, it's true, but even when you are taking the time to smell the roses, how is it going to help you with long run of making your life worth something so you can stop living with regrets?

I keep reading my book and come across this: I will make a commitment to fulfilling my dreams no matter what I may be feeling and I will dare to move forward in the face of life's challenges. I believe that what God has placed inside me is superior to the mountains that stand in my way.

He really did. He loves me that much.That He has it all worked out for me, and I need to trust him, and do what He asks of me. I need to live. I need to live my life day by day, step by step and enjoy the little things that he has blessed me with. Find the moments that matter most and keeping those with to get through each stage of my life. God has a plan for me, and he will make sure that I am happy. 

I will let the love of God

touch the depths of my heart 

and mold me into the person I should be.

I will make love the center

of my being and all I do. 

I look back at my high school days and my middle school days and I don't remember enjoying them. I barely remember my freshman year of college, but what sticks out the most to me are the times where I know the spirit is involved. and if we let the spirit in our lives every day, every moment we can, we will have more precious memories, we will have more things that will be worth our time that will truly benefit us in the long run. I will savor the beauty and wonder of the world around me.

I am so grateful for this gospel, this church, and the friends I have made here. I will take what is given to me and make a masterpiece, so that my children and my grandchildren can see through my eyes and learn that they are children of God, that they are all part of this beautiful painting called Life on Earth.

From now on I will take the time to stop, look, think of my Heavenly Father and my Savior, Jesus Christ, say 'thank you' and smile because I know I am loved no matter what. 

peace

PS. Enjoy :)

One more year

Soooooooo...

I'm a senior in college now...

BOO-YAH!!!!!!!

May Musical!

Okay, so, there were auditions for the May Musical, 110 in the Shade, about a week ago and i had signed up for them and then I went and crossed my name off... I wasn't prepared!! Professor S. called me out in class the next day and we set up a time for me to come in and sing for him. (Note: Singing is not my strongest talent. I'm not tone deaf that's for sure. Let's say I prefer singing in the car where it doesn't matter if you're good or not.) So I prepared myself to sing (My poor housemates) and got there and he had a song ready for me to sing which is the song of the only other female part that is actually a supporting part. I sang, did some scales and that was it. THEN. I got a call back :) for the part of Snookie. Which is the part I sang for. I was against two other girls who were great singers. One of the "Jimmys" couldn't make it to the callback so he did it the next day and I got a text saying to help him out with it. and I did and now I'm Snookie :) I am pretty excited! I'm moving up the SVU ladder! Fist-Pump! Now I gotta make skin orange and get pregnant! hahaha jk...

peace

Mark of a Story.

So it has been awhile since I have written a poem, or really anything! But here is a new one! Please enjoy and please comment!


 





I forgot you had been here awhile.
A swing in your step, charm and a smile.
I walked by you everyday, looking past.
But now you have my attention at last.


I didn't see that spark in your eyes
Until the moment they locked onto mine.
I have no problem now breathing you in
Breathing in your magic into my skin.


And there you are, And here I am.
Take me away to a crazy land.
Let's take on the world together
We can make it stronger and better.
And leave our mark of a story behind.


Finding you was never part of the plan.
a degree, a steady job but no man.
but since you stepped up out of the crowd.
No future of heart break is to be found.


Before all of this I was so blind
And you helped me to see more with my mind.
I have no problem now seeing you in
Seeing you in my life with no end


And there you are, And here I am.
Take me away to a crazy land.
We're taking on the world together
You make me stronger and better
Our mark of a story will never end


Here are other poems I have written! Some are more popular and can be found to the right -------->
But here are all the poems I have written so far! Please browse through and enjoy!

Perfect Starry Night   Run With Me   Where We Began   True Friend   First Kiss   Unsaid

peace

In N.Y.C.

I just spent the past 4 days in New York City and it was AMAZING!!! I love this city! I totally belong there! No one says "Hi" and "How are you?" when you're walking around. Everyone just keeps to themselves and just goes! I love it! (It might sound like I'm being sarcastic... but I'm not.)
 

Times square is my favorite place there It has a Forever 21 with four floors. FOUR! I shed a tear when I walked in the building. It was just so beautiful!
 

I did the Travel Study trip with my school and my acting professor was in charge of it. I got to see some really amazing shows! I saw War Horse, Porgy and Bess, Phantom of the Opera, and Anything Goes with the Sutton Foster, and THE Joel Grey. Two Broadway stars!

ncdhfhclan:BDi;osfieqhydjpoDU';p9.......... O_O

Hope that expresses my feelings about them.



peace

D. Co.

In Dance Company we have our recital coming up in april sometime and we already have four routines ready for it. We just finished jazz last night and it's pretty different than our normal dances we do. I really like it and I hope our audience likes it. We have three more all member squad dances left to learn. A co-ed swing number. A small group contemporary choreographed by me. It's definitly the weirdest dance we're doing. And then we have two modern numbers. I'm really excited for our show this spring. We've really stepped it up. I'm so proud of my team, they've grown a lot.
Dance Company is the only place I feel truly myself. If only they had a dance major or even a minor at my school.... Give me a better reason for being here. I'm just glad I'm keeping busy with choreographing a bunch of numbers for D. Co. I can literally say that I am obsessed with Dance, and if one day I ever decide that I don't need dance in my life anymore, slap me. Hard. Maybe with a baseball bat. Whatever gets the point across.


Peace

Bully.

So this movie is mostly filmed in the town I grew up in. Sioux City, IA. I really wanna see it. Especially since there were a few years in my life where I was bullied. Watching this bout made me tear up.

Valentine's Day

So I normally hate Valentine's Day, but this particular one just might turn everything around. The guy I'm seeing Decided to blindfold me and put me in his car and drive me around for probably 30 mins. The whole time I'm guessing what we're doing. I'm guessing things from romantic ideas to him kidnapping me and raping me. All he tells me is that he has been planning this for a couple weeks and he has conspirators. So then I start guessing who's involved. He obvious doesn't tell me anything.Then he parks God knows where in my mind and takes me out of the car. It sounds like we could be out in the middle of nowhere. Maybe next to a highway? I'm not entirely sure. I'm still blindfolded. He tells me to step up on to some step, I barely make it and to walk in to the area. I take off my blindfold to a candlelit dinner in the back of his family's moving van. Then I punched him.

Never have I ever had any guy do anything like this for me. Turned out his whole family was involved, and they had decorated the van and set up romantic music to play, a heater so we wouldn't freeze in the van, spaghetti for dinner and brownie cake for dessert. It was so disgustingly romantic I punch him again. 

It was so incredibly nice. 

The whole time we're eating I keep asking him where we are. Where is this van parked? Are we outside in the woods? By a highway? Where? All he tells me is when I find out is that I'll punch him. I then say when he's finally gonna reveal where we are is "You didn't drive around aimlessly and take me to your parents house, did you?" 

He opens the door and we are totally at his parents house! And like he called it I punched him. Again. 

To all my ex-boyfriends....suck it 

:)

peace

Boy Meets World.

Life's Tough. Get A Helmet.

Best. Advice. Ever.

peace

Nerd Hop.

Yesterday we performed our first dance of the semester.

Nerd Hop. 

I made a mix of old school favorites and then we dressed up like nerds and got jiggy with it.

It turned out pretty good, and the audience seemed to like it! It was fun to do. And I'm proud of my team :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FHeMISkaTdo&context=C3482c48ADOEgsToPDskKPK-Ifu9AWyv-anKDoDaf9


peace

Marilyn.

Marilyn Monroe.

I love her. She talks like she has life figured out.

Good enough for me.









   

What a way to start a new year...

So it's the New Year. (Finally)  And it's startin' out great!

But first! Let's recap on all that has happened in 2011!

I meet this kid.

Dance Company got better!

Went to Disney World with one of my best friends and my nieces!

Took a clown class that I will NEVER forget. 

The paint fight that started rockin' the boat!

Man of La Mancha. What up!

Then this guy shows up!

My Uncle died May 9th. His Memorial was end of June.

Back to school!! Got my friends back!

 TAYLOR SWIFT IN CONCERT!

 Pride and Prejudice. Awesome.

 The infamous Bieber Dance. Aww yeah.

If I had to describe 2011 in one word, it would be roller-coaster. I never had drama before in my life till this year. I hope it never comes back! But here's to life, experiences and lessons learned!

2012! You are already off to a great start!

peace